Wednesday, April 30, 2008
{ 5:27 AM }
Can i just die??
I dont feel like jamming tomorrow.
I guess i rather die.
You can call me emo i dont give a fuck.
I dunno why i was born to this world.
Oh god help me thee.
Why this has to happened??
Why cant it be settled??
Do you know it affect most of us??
Do you know how hurtful it is now??
Do you know how hurtful it is forever??
Maybe i should just die.
Maybe i should go.
Then everything will start anew.
I think thats the best way.
Yah,i think its the best for me and for you..
Thank you.
goodbye.
{ 2:58 AM }
"The endings the same,Past mistakes that you made,Come back to; haunt you. I made a mistake; I wish I could take back everything that I did. I wanted to tell you, I really did. But how do I explain this?
Promise me you will be there until the red light will change, I would wait forever. Promise me you will stay here until the darkness will fade, I'd wait for you, You.
A mistake,wish I could take, Back everything,That I did.I wanted to tell you, I really did.But how do I explain?
I wanted to tell you, what really happened, how do I explain this? How do I explain everything?
All this time, and I'm all on my own,Awake,Wait for you,All this time, all on my own, by myself,Wait for you,Myself,For you, wait for you.."
-Silverstein-
{ 12:41 AM }
I read gerfiee's blog early in the morning before going to work.Jus wondering what she be writing.And i don't understand what she is tryna say in her blog but its ok.Hope things just turned out well.Suddenly i wasnt enthusiastic about the gig anymore.Ok,maybe abit but i see gerfiee in this manner i cnt help myself but to feel kinda demoralised.if anybody happen to read this,please,i said again PLEASE do not blame GAFL for any mishap or watsoeva cos its a band which have musicians with prospect and passion and i said this not because my gerfiee is in it but i said this as a whole.Please spare a thought.To GAFL,i jus wanna say that you are appreciated by me and i really like the music you brought,esp the 1st ori.seriously it dope.....ok i dunno wat the heck or what the hell im saying but im not ok nw.....Gerfiee,pls be with me.If u read this i jus wanna say I love you and thank you for bein there when i needed you the most.Never will i leave you cos i cnt live a single day without you by my side and you knoe that..ok,i shall not write any further...keep on smilin k darl,and leave all the strees to me...ILYTM.haiz
"As i lay dying,so does your heart."
-Carhartt-
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
{ 2:59 PM }
Monday morning..another day of off for me..I was tired after yesterday's outing with gerfiee and GAFL that i woke up quite late.It was 1040hrs.I was surprised to find my mum still at home when she was suppose to be following my dad to work as usual.But she was there and when i asked,she said she wasnt feeling so well.I told her to rest well and then i go back to my room and sit at the edge of my bed,wondering what to do,wondering what will happen today.Oh ya,i remember finally.I'm suppose to meet gerfiee again today and it was my 1st day of school.I was excited but was more excited in meeting gerfiee later on.We'll be meet and we'll have lunch together.I suddenly realised i was sweating.Well,humidity i supposed.Heck,i got up from bed and prepare for later school....
Reached Tampines 10 mins earlier.Its ok cos its better for me to wait rather then gerfiee waitin for me.She came on time,only 3 mins late.still,its ok.She was gorgeous,drop dead.I smiled.So so happy to see her.We had lunch and then went to find my stationaries.We slacked after that and i bought SEA MONKEYS for gerfiee!!!!at 1st she was hugging this spongebob doll but after she saw the sea monkeys,she changed her mind and took the sea monkeys instead.Cute la she.She said she was like small kid but i said that she's not.I hope i had make it up to you for last night dear.I'm so sorry dear.I was happy that she was so happy.We had ice-creams and fries at Macdonalds before gerfiee sent me to the MRT..Thanks dearie for being with me..
I reached,heart beating very fast.Kinda nervous since it was my first day at school.Everybody's like alien from mars to me.Met Janice to buy the books from her.she was late but it's ok.she apologised anyway.So I proceed to block A to have my lesson.Quantitiative lesson.Basic business Mathematics.lol.I was the youngest in class and i am 23!!I got to know about it after my class by this guy Annuar.made friends with him and he is 30!But he's a cool dude and he doesnt look his age.We exchanged numbers so we can keep in contact.Overall,class was fun and i musnt forget to do my homework.So much for "Ape mau skolah??" and "Ape mau HW??" lol.I reached home at 2320hrs and i was tired and sleepy......
"I lose myself in anguish for tonight,help me get over you."
-Alesana-
Saturday, April 26, 2008
{ 2:59 PM }
My eyes are shut for now it seems the only way that I can cope. A glittering example of what we've become. So grab yourself by the wrist and think about this twice One mistake could be the last action that you make. Now I'm on m knees, I can feel my spirit leaving me. I chose to promise myself that I'd never let you down. To capture this moment would be the best idea yet. Cowering in the dark. This room is now my friend. I'll stay here and wait it out until the pressure ends. I can't wait!!! Everything around me is a test to see I can last. I don't know if I can. Where's my strength at? I made a promise to myself that I'd always be around. I should capture this moment, before I let you down. I'm sure that I'll be heard, I've got too much to lose to fly away and leave all of this behind. So capture this moment, before I forget why I'm here. I'm killing the only person in life I thought I knew. The only person left to blame for this is you! I've got things to say that I know you want to hear. I can see through you perfectly clear. Don't go too far. I chose to stay here. Remind me where we are.
-Glory of this-
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
{ 11:16 AM }

Updates on 210408 are as follows:
1) Woke up super early just to watch many many movies online.
2) Faizal called me up and asked me if i wanna go gym today,but i declined.
3) Clean up my room.
4) Pack up my clothings as im moving out soon.(finally.)
5) Finally i got to meet gerfiee.Miss her too much.
ps: sowee gerfiee i follow your style cos i think its kinda cool if u think you dont have anything to talk about..lol
Sunday, April 20, 2008
{ 12:50 AM }
Today??What am i suppose to talk bot today??I also dunno..Hmmm..Maybe i'll talk about my work and talk about what happened to my friends just now..
I was doing shooting gallery today which was surprising cos ive not been doing it for many many months and i was shocked at 1st.Nevertheless i forgot how to set up the gallery so i asked Faizal to help me out........
ALAH EFF LA..I NO MOOD TO WRITE THIS BLOODY ENTRY TODAY!!!!!!!!!!....BYE.
Friday, April 18, 2008
{ 11:51 PM }
Hie there,i know its been a long tyme since i wrte in my entry..too busy or too lazy i guess..lol.Aniwaes today i worked and it was daym boring.nothing much i did 2dae except i did a refresher training with Henry and Gerly-Man at iwerks.DJ Wang was there also so we both refresh ourselves.It was funny seein DJ Wang copying down notes and i tld him i wanna copy frm him lata..(Which i dun!)lol.After work while waiting for the bus,i cam-whore.gosh!!did i jus say cam-whore??lol..Took pics with most of the lads and it was fun....ok,hre are the pics.
Faizal,Jason,Jerry and Rico
Fellow Olympiads!!
Caizi,Kak Irah,Aly,Jules and Jenny
Qahar and Jerry doing the push-up challenge.
Step can carry only gang..hahaha!!

After work i went meet the guys for jamming session at this new lace called Odiocrib at Bugis.I heard its Zee's frens place.so we went there to check it out.As usual,Dan and Joey was late and Joey brought along her gf.Wish i cld bring Titi along also..Nevertheless we were 10mins late and zee's fren fetch us.From Lion City Hardcore la geng.I talked to him bot the scene now cos my cousin usta slack with em lads during his younger times.he didnt noe my cousin,nvm.So we jam and complete our 1st setlist and den Kin wanna record the 1st ori.So we were halfway tru wen zee's oda frens join us and watch us jam.They are from the Purple Fireflies whu will b performin with us on the 3rd may.Joey gf wanna go hme but he dun let.Den Joey's gf jus leave the room and chased after her.So its a total screw up cos after he left we jus dunno hw to continue.So we waste our tymes playin crappy songs and even we let zee's frens to act scream.kewl la seh.We play a couple of oda crappy songs den we call it a day.I screamed along with the lion city guy and we scream to blink's dammit.lol.was grt to sing alongside with him..After that we go 7-11 to buy drinks and den we took the train bck and we parted waes..Overall im quite prepared for the gig and we cnt wait to perform.We were encouraged by the comments given by the guys running the studio..thanks guys.if god's willing,we'll be back again..hre's the pics..enjoy..gerfiee,i miss ypu too much..





Saturday, April 12, 2008
{ 9:58 PM }
Hello..finally i'm back again writing this entry after a long long break.Well,today im suppose to work but i took urgent leave due to some circumstances.Anyway i'm not meeting gerfiee but i promised her we will meet on Monday.I was shocked when my mum tld me early in the morning that my sister is coming for a visit,meaning my nephews will be coming over too..i was overjoyed cos i miss them so much..So i waited for them to come.
They came around 1430hrs and i was overjoyed upon seeing them.i helped my sister with her stuffs and i found out she bought me chicken cutlet!!yummy!i was overjoyed and when i reached hme i quickly indulged in the food.huhu.And the good news was my sis is expecting the 3rd child!!hopefully it will be a girl this tyme after both of her current children are boys.So i played with the older son and he tld me he wanted to play with my old old toys.So i ransacked my room and managed to find my toy transformers and ninja turtle.He was happy and i entertain him.gosh i flt young for once..huhu..After that i played with the younger brother.he's only 7 mths old but he very the gembeng la..mus b with the mother 24/7 or else he wld cry and cry.hehe..but cute la.i carried him and less than 3 mins,he started crying.So i tot if i knock2 the door he wld keep quiet (the Ahmad Albab movie) but it didnt work.he jus kpt on crying and crying..gembeng la my mum call him.i laughed.but it was fun and enjoyable and i actually slpt with the gembeng cos the weather was cold and i was sleepy.hehe..then at 1830hrs,my sis went bck home cos her hubby's gonna go werk soon...i wish they wld come bck again and my mum said she wanna take cre of the 3rd child so the child wnt b gembeng like the 2nd one..hopefully it happen..
I know dear i always have wild thoughts.i suddenly thought bout our future..huhu..Love you the most dearie....
ps:sorry thres no pics la...but they are cute....lol